Friday, March 31, 2006

Lets show off the...

This is how Vancouver shows off with “Spring”. Well, I personally don’t believe in showing off , but then if u ever decide to do something wrong, do it right!
Do it the way Vancouver does it ; “Classy” and “Perfect”. Think of this way; a "Perfect show off" could impress ppl around you! Aren’t you impressed with Vancouver yet?

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Have some mercy plz.

I was in the line to get a tea and there was this tall, slim, good looking girl in front of me .She ordered a drink with a pastry and wanted to pay it with her debit card. Her card was declined, so she said with this thick accent: "ok, I 'll just have the drink then" and tried to pay only for the drink (1.66 $) with her debit again. It declined again, and the server was furious, the ppl behind her were on fire since there was just one serve and a huge line up. I was just watching her and honestly to this day, I couldn’t believe that someone might not have $ 1.66 . Well, at least from now on, I know if I am not going through something that doesn’t say anything about its existence; a mistake that a lot of ppl make.
Finally, she left while everybody were giving her dirty looks as if she was a serial killer or something like it.
Anyways, she left the store while she was about to break into tears and I really felt the pain that she was going through; the humiliation was too much , let alone dirty looks .
I tried to see ppl behind me and to me they all seemed to be in their late 30s or 40s ( mature ppl , u know, not teen ages!!!) and I was like fuck you ppl, so u waited in line 5 more minutes, what is the big deal?!?!Be more understanding, that girl could be you since life has its own surprises!
It’s really sad to see how impatient, careless, cruel, and stupid ppl become day after day. There are few ppl who still kept their virtues and morality and if we could clone those ppl, then we would have live in a better place where ppl wouldn’t mind to waite 5 more minutes. By the way the saddest part of the story is still is to come , the girl in the line was wearing a Farbehar and yes, she was Persian !

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Love's Divine

Then the rainstorm came over me
And I felt my spirit break
I had lost all of my belief you see
And realize my mistake
But time through a prayer to me
And all around me became still

I need love, love's divine
Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind
Give me love, loves is what I need to help me know my name

Through the rainstorm came sanctuary
And I felt my spirit fly
I had found all of my reality
I realize what it takes

'Cause I need love, love's divine
Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind
Give me love, loves is what I need to help me know my name

Oh I don't bet , don't pray,
Show me how to live and promise me you won't forsake
'Cause love can help me know my name

Well I try to say there's nothing wrong
But inside I felt me lying all alone
But the message here was plain to see
Believe in me…

'Cause I need love, love's divine
Please forgive me now I see that I've been blind
Give me love, love is what I need to help me know my name

Oh I, don't bet, don't break,
Show me how to live and promise me you won't forsake
'Cause love can help me know my name

Love can help me know my name.

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Think "Color" this year ;)

Lets hope for a colorful year !
Happy Norouz ;)

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Just Fuck it cause it's the same ALWAYS

Same looks, same attitudes, same gestures, same greetings, same “Hi”, same “Bye”, same plays, same everything, same, same, same,…well, actually it’s the same fucked up puzzle!!!
Everything is the same except we are older now, but then our older versions still love to play “hide and seek”!
It was the same years ago, is the same now and will be the same tomorrow and the day after and….
History for sure repeats itself and I hate that, I simply hate that. How can I stop it? I have no idea, I don’t know how to make it different next time, cause I am sick of running in a circle every now and then. I know for sure next time I’ll end up with too many “same”s , and I am not sure if I can take it again, but then do I have any other choice?!
Every body says something different to me and add another puzzle to my original one, I don’t think if I ever solve this puzzle, and I should just be happy with same, same and same, and let go of solving the puzzle. This puzzle made me question myself for Nth times, but I never answered those questions either, too many questions and I simply don’t bother to do anything about them…too much to take, so I might as well think of it as an "impossible puzzle" and fuck it !!The only thing that makes me happy is that I am not alone in this….

I just wrote this piece for “the one” who asked for it. Peace ;)

Friday, March 17, 2006

I let you in on a little secret ;)

The secret of attraction is to love yourself. Attractive people judge neither themselves no others . They are open to guestures of love. They think about love, and express their love in every action. They know that love is not a mere sentiment, but the ultimate truth at the heart of the universe!

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Never Quit cause...

Today I was stuck in a Medical clinic for about 2 hours. Well, I can’t complain when you are a walking in-patient; you have no right to talk, let alone complaining. It really sucks when you get stuck in a place where you can’t complain. A lot of ppl might not care about waiting and not being able to speak out, but not me! I was going to tell the Dr, “oh yeh, on the top of N symptoms that brought me here, I have been experiencing backache since I was sitting still on your amazingly comfortable antic wooden chairs for about 2 hours!” but then I decided to shut my mouth and get the whole thing over with.
While waiting in the clinic, I was going through the magazines and I came across this interview with Lance in O magazine. In the interview, Opera mentioned that ppl used to think of Lance as this cocky individual who wouldn’t give a damn to media. I was so surprised to learn that about Lance cause in my opinion everyone could be cocky, but not my Hero,Lance!!
Defending himself, he was saying that it wasn’t all about him being cocky, and part of it was his shyness and then he mentioned how aging and life events changed him for good.
I personaly, believe "Time is the solution to everything”. Time for sure can convert an arrogant individual to a humble sweet heart if we just be patient ;)
Anyways, in another part when he was talking about how he battled cancer, he said “Pain is temporary, but quitting is forever”. This simple sentence of him got me so bad that I am here right now and writing another piece of crap, but then I believe any piece of crap has its own gifts.
Bottom line, never forget, if you quit that’s the end and you are doomed; just hang in there cause pain is temporary and "time" is for sure your friend most of the time ;)

Sunday, March 12, 2006

Follow Your Madness

I have got a new disease these days, I just wanna read everything that is written everywhere, and this sort of reminds me of the first summer that I learned reading (Ages ago when I was young, wise, and restless!) I still remember that I used to read anything that was written anywhere and my mom and my sis would get so excited!
Anyways after 2 decades my old habit came back to hunt me, but this time no one gets excited while I am reading stuff, besides, sometimes I annoy ppl around me by reading craps! What can a 2 and a 0 do to your life is unbelievable!
Today before heading to the library I got a cup of tea, and as always I started reading on the cup. For the first time I saw something familiar on my cup.I never thought I would be seeing lyrics of one of my favorite songs on a Starbucks cup...Do you have any idea how exciting could that be?!
I love the idea of writing a collection of thoughts, opinions and expressions on this boring cups. Every time that I get a drink , the first thing that I do is reading my cup. I have to admit reading my cup is more exciting than the drink itself. Come to think of it , this is the modern version of reading coffee cups which is way cheaper, and of course you get to learn something other than listening to some craps that a fortune teller mumbles to you.
I haven’t met any one who get so much excited about reading their cups and the reality is that almost all ppl don’t give a F*** about what is written on their cups, but I still think this is a very interesting way of sharing a piece of information with a crowd. I feel so awkward now , I think I am the only pathetic person who pays so much attention to a cup, but then who cares as long as I am happy, I follow my madness...
Here is my reading of the day ;)

Let go your sorrow.
Let go your blues.
Coz I know tomorrow
is yesterday’s news.
Let go your sadness,
give up the fight,
follow your madness
and take flight ... take flight.


Thursday, March 09, 2006

Surprise!!!!! W I N T E R is Back!

Life is for sure full of surprises! Two days ago while we were walking in the street, I was telling a friend about the beauty of the blossom trees, and how more beautiful they would become in the next 2 or 3 weeks when they’ll be full of flowers! At the time, weather was warm and sunny and I really thought that winter was “history”!
Well, right now it’s snowing like crazy and winter is back; I can’t stand the idea of loosing all those beautiful white and pink blossoms! It's really surprising to me; first we had the early spring and then it didn’t take so long for winter to come back.
This makes you wonder why spring came early at the first place and at the same time it makes you feel insecure about its permanent stay in the near future!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

Not more than 15 minutes!

Afternoon naps, something that Persians and a lot of Europeans do! Did you ever think why ppl sleep in the afternoon? Well, of course even a kid would know the reason, but why do we get sleepy just around 2:00 –3:00. Don’t we sleep enough at nights?
I personally hate afternoon naps. They start with yawning and no matter how hard you try to resist falling asleep, you simply can’t do it, and finally you end up in your bed thinking that you have made the right decision. You would do anything, absolutely anything in order to get some sleep, and you try to fool yourself by saying “I just sleep for 15 minutes”.
Actually if you only sleep for 15 to 30 minutes to recharge yourself for the rest of the day, that’s just perfect, but then how many ppl have you known who sleep for only 15 to 30 minutes?!?
To be very precise, you end up sleeping for more than an hour and when you wake up, you feel like shit. Yeh I am not joking and shit is nothing, you feel even worst than shit! You feel like you are in a strange place, that you are lost, and suddenly an unpleasant version of your life story premieres in your brain.
Well, believe it or not, this is what is happening. I m not saying everybody feels the same, but I haven’t seen anyone who claimed something else yet, and my assumption are just based on my limited knowledge and of course my precious feelings ;)
Bottom line: No matter how many times you feel like shit and you promise yourself that you never ever sleep in the afternoon again, you still do it sometimes. I slept today for about 1.5 hours and when I woke up, I felt like shit, and yes I did it again!
What is it about afternoon naps, first you are willing to do anything to get some sleep, and then you hate yourself for doing it. More importantly what is about us, why do we keep repeating things that we are already aware of the consequences? Can’t we just control our dizziness till the feeling goes away, and then enjoy the rest of the day without feeling like shit!

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

A Productive Day At Library!

I am in the library now, well I have been here since they opened the doors and hey I was so f***ing proud of myself to be here so early.
Lets face it, being here before opening hours doesn’t necessarily mean that you’ll be studying all day. Since I came here I have done everything from reading magazines( come on, they are very important stuff in ppl, vogue, us, hello, and such magazines;), browsing on the internet, checking every single person who passed me( who all happened to be these amazingly breathtaking Asians) and the list goes on and yet didn’t touch my books. Now I can understand what did my friends mean when they were complaining about doing everything other than studying during exam period. I used to think of the whole concept as something silly and unreal. Today, I am the living example of that and this means: yeh such silly things do happen and despite my believes, I am no exception, and the worst part is that they might happen more than once ...Scary world, u get to experience things that you never ever thought would happen to you. I personally never thought one day I would wanna study and instead wasting time in anyway possible.
Let’s face a fact here; if I don’t get myself together soon enough I can end up being the professional time killer of the century in no time!!
I don’t know why ppl keep saying that life is short. I'm starting to believe that life is long enough for us to experience everything that one day we thought were silly and impossible! I think I said enough already, and I need to get real before I waste my whole day at library!